Tired

I realised that I become very sleepy when I type an entry on my blog. I guess it can be used when I can't sleep right? Great idea!

Motivation

I asked myself what is my motivation in life? What drives me? The great people in this world has motivation. What drives me?

You ask, why motivation and now? Something in me stirred when I read, " The Presentation Secrets of Steve Job". I have alot of respect for Steve Jobs and I really admired him for what he has done. He sees art. There's so many things I could talk about him but for today, I just want to highlight why he created Apple.

He wanted to unleash the human potential with computers. Back in the 80s when PCs were around, most of it was used to do work. There were no PCs created to create art and that's why he built Apple, to create art. Apple products are a work of art. There are always other competitors who performs better than Apple products by hardware. But what's in it, the OS, and the beautiful exterior that makes it an item to lust for.

I started asking myself lately what's my motivation to live, to work, to perform a certain task? I haven't found my answers yet but I will someday.

The Flash!

It's interesting to know that when people say that life flashes by in an instant right before you die is actually true. But Barney puts it more specific, things that are important to you will flash by and I agree to that. When I had my first major asthma attack back in 2004 or 05, alot of things were running in my head. I saw my family. There was so many things that I wanted to do. So many things I haven't accomplished. I was only 16.

Late Saturday, I sensed my asthma was coming back and thankfully this time I had my inhaler with me. It's too risky not to bring it around. I realised that after a few puffs from the inhaler, I wasn't really recovering. It had lessen the severity but it never gave out. On Saturday, I went to Alexander Hospital to get myself checked. I should have seen this coming. I was asked why I came and I told them I had asthma. A few minutes later, they brought me to the back and gave me some medication by a face mask and some oral medication. I hate it when I don't expect it. I think I was at the hospital for about an hour and a half. I think. At least I got 2 days MC which isn't so bad really. Got another inhaler and some medications.

Sure enough being sick sucks. A friend told me that she was sick of being sick so she just did stuff and ate like she was fine. I tried it out and true enough, it wasn't so bad really. I just have to watch out for my cough and phlegm. Monday was awesome! I'd love to add it but my eyes can't handle it now. Turning in now. Goodnight!

Move On

After watching the movie Miracles, alot of things came to mind. Almost every area in my life came to me and ask me what's next? I knew what this movie was all about. I've Wikied it, Googled it and even YouTubed it. What's there to know more about the movie. It's about watching the whole movie and get connected with it. It's the process that engages us.

I've actually taken 3 more puffs from my inhaler before I started typing this out. Asthma or shortness of breath? I feel both. It's a terrible feeling. It's probably caused by a significant amount of fizzy drinks I had for the past 2 weeks. Lack of rest or sleep and exercise. Why am I consuming such unhealthy consumables and not giving myself enough of what the body really needs? I think I've found the answer.

I've been giving myself to others more. I wouldn't say it's a bad thing but I just did not know how to strike a balance. I'm in a bad shape right now. Worse I've ever been not accounting to my health at this moment. I'm learning more about myself, more of how I react to new replies. Things changed. So must I. I believe most of us who's away from Singapore for some time will make new friends to whichever country they go to for whatever the reason. These people changed to adapt so that they can survive in a foreign land. For those left behind, we have to move forward and progress.

I missed talking to my BFF. We used to go and have lunch together during her lunch time when I'm on off duty. I really enjoyed the times we spent together as she has taught me so much about alot of stuff. She's really an amazing woman. Her other half is so fortunate to have her. He's a great guy too and I learned loads of stuff from him too! I really owe alot to them. I think it's time for me to catch up with them very soon and I'm looking forward to meeting them very soon!

Ending my day again with hot Milo and dreaming my dream.

masking

Have you ever thought what the other person feels when he/she sends you a happy message? Was the message sent with an expression of happiness or was it just something he/she had to send just to make the chat looks happy to the other party?

Sometimes I wonder myself. Was all this for real or was I faking it?

where? over here?

What makes people popular? Is it just by looks alone or is there more than meets the eye?

Sometimes I wonder what these popular people do in their spare time? They probably have people contacting them 24/7 with whatever technology there is in the world. Technology has made communication so much easier and simpler.

This is a very random post and who cares right?