End of Jan

January 2011 has ended. Today is February 2011.

As a start, I am really grateful to be alive and kicking. We should always be grateful, when we're both sad and happy. Being consciously aware of what I'm thinking and doing is really something I'm beginning to experience more and I intend to use it to help others grow.

The Sentosa Boardwalk has finally opened. It's a 500m stretch of causeway for people to walk into Sentosa. It's nice to walk on the outside in the evening. Lights from Vivocity and Resorts World makes the Sentosa Boardwalk a nice place just to hangout.

On the opening day, a group of Sentosa staff and some dancers from schools performed a flash mob. I was one of the Sentosa staff. I wasn't into it at first during the first rehearsal. But in the midst of the first rehearsal, I knew I was hooked. I think it's the adrenaline and energy that sucked me in and made me want to perform. We had 3 rehearsals on different days and it was fun for me. For the actual day itself, I was very hyped about it. I knew I want to quickly do it. And when the time came, we danced. It was an unbelievable feeling. I was so high. By the time it ended, I was quite upset. I did screw up some moves but that wasn't the problem. It ended too fast. All we did was danced and it ended in a blink of an eye. It was a very fun and exhilarating for me! All good things must come to an end. But the memory remains.

My red refurbished iPod nano has arrived! It came in this box and even had a USB cable, an Apple earphones and a dock adapter. I just love the color :D

I was having this conversation with Gabriel the other day and we talked about our future. What lies ahead and we shared what we want to have in the future. What struck me the most was how old I was going to be next year. I'll be 25. Age is just a number. It's scary to think about it logically really. A close cousin of mine is getting married this Sunday. He's a year older than me. That makes him 25 this year. The thought of being 25 next year hit me like a brick wall flying at me. It wasn't a good sign, or was it?

January 2011 has ended. Today is February 2011.

What will February bring? Let's pray for the best.

People Are Awesome!

The book "How to win friends and influence people" by Dale Carnegie is just awesome! It's probably one of the best books I've read and enjoyed alot. It's a book which I truly wish that all schools have and be taught to the students. The world would definitely be a better place if the techniques were followed.

When I first saw the title of this book, I was taken aback by the title but I've heard somewhere that this was a book that could change anyone's life for the better if you just follow the simple rules.

That person was right. I was never good with people or wasn't very sociable. I hated ice breakers. I had a very difficult time talking to people whom I just met and I can't seem to get any attention. I thought I was very shy. I could never be interesting. But when I started reading and applied what was written inside, my life started to change.

How did I change? In a lot of area. Most obvious to me would be how I interact with people. I felt like I could connect with people easier. I'm more confident but still shy. There's so many area in my life have improved after I read and reread the book. Like someone famous said, you'll always find something new when you reread a book. We're only receptive to what we are looking for.

I typed out this blog as I'm reading the book again. I won't be typing what's there in the book. It's content is just too much for me to type it out here but I can assure that it's worth to read if you're finding ways to improve your life and relationship with others.

Just some thoughts. Serious or not :)

Heartwarming.

Today have been a great day. Just had my Myojo curry chicken cup noodles and Pokka jasmine green tea. Life's simple pleasure. Anyway, TODAY IS PAYDAY! YEAH! :D

Back to business...

There was dance practice for the opening of the boardwalk earlier at 6pm. It was really fun! When I was chosen to do this dance by Shiqin a week ago, I was like oh man. But I figured I'm definitely not the only one feeling that way. Being half optimistic, I just went. By the end of that practice, I find it fun! I had a great workout and it was something totally new to me. I never danced like that before so it was not easy for me. The moves were cool but to execute them is not easy. Sure I had a great time, but by the end of that, my hamstring hurts! Thankfully it's just my hamstring. I bet some had soreness all over the body. Today's practice was the whole thing from the top. It was so fun to do all that. I really enjoyed it and now both my legs hurt a little. I think it's because I didn't stretched enough. 3 more days to the actual day. Excited!

Earlier in the afternoon, I went to meet up with Kat who works at NIKE at West Coast Plaza. I remembered my best friend's little sister, Liyinn, wanted socks from NIKE about 2 months back. We were then just walking around in a KL shopping center, and she said she was looking for socks as stuff in Malaysia is definitely cheaper. But to my knowledge, such shopping centre which we went to doesn't have much variety and I was right. They had NIKE socks but the ones she wanted was not sold there. Back in Singapore. I saw the socks Liyinn wanted at West Coast Plaza. Since Kat works there, I'll get 30% off under Kat's account. Called Liyinn a few days back and she said she wanted 6 pairs and so I got them for her. As for me, I wanted socks too but there wasn't any size for me. There were 2 Air Force 1's that I fancied but there wasn't any size for me too. Simply put, there was nothing for me to buy at that moment.

25/01/2011. I remembered that I did not wake up a happy person that day. At least it wasn't as bad as the night before. The day didn't start well for me either and then came an e-mail from a good friend of mine, Cindy, which had a title "100 ways to motivate yourself". It was hard to absorb such material so I just skimmed through the e-mail on my iPhone while I was in the bus to work and I found this phrase "Anything that worries you should be acted upon. Not just thought about" on one of the 100 ways. I recalled doing stuff when I was not in the good mood. It's my way of blowing up steam. When I was at work, I was assigned to be on tower but I was pulled put to cover ground. It rained and it never stopped. Nicole texted me and told me it rained as she was in hut 7. She called it the Nicole effect. I forgotten that she had told me that before. When Nicole works at hut 7, it'll rain. If it's not a heavy downpour, a small drizzle is still counted. It still poured when Nicole's at hut 7.

What I did at work was admin and toilet checks. Moving around actually helped me to loosen up and made me feel better. The run during my break actually helped me to loosened up even more and thus the day at work had made me happier. Texts coming from Nicole and Has made the day even better. I did told Nicole the night before that I didn't want to go for the dinner on 25/01/2011. That thought was made when I was in the worst situation so I had to decide by what is right. I did went to have dinner with Nicole and Has at TOS in the end after work. That was the plan Has planned a few days back. It was a wonderful dinner. I can't remember the time I had 2 beautiful women eating with me. I don't think I ever had. Hmm.. The plan to have ice-cream after dinner never came about as the 3 of us was definitely enjoying each others company after dinner. We were there for close to 2 hours. I realized it after we were about to leave. We then headed to Vivocity to help Nicole choose a pair of earphones to replace her worn out purple Koss earphones where music only comes out from one the headphones according to her description. So we all went to Challenger and helped Nicole picked a new pair for her. A purple Sony earphones. Nicole's favourite color is purple and not green. Right after she threw her old Koss earphones, all of us head home. The day ended in a total 360 degree change from morning to night. I felt like I was back to normal. Or so I thought. Tired and sleepy sounds more real. I was definitely happier.

I think I've never typed this much before. Maybe I have but I can't recall:/

My body is aching and I'm sleepy. Going off now.

Thanks Nicole for reminding me,"the longest anyone should ever sulk for is 15 minutes cos any longer than that. life's passing by". Sometimes I hate you for being right. Only for that instance.

Good night!

This is the view I saw at Palawan Beach at 6.30pm. It's just magnificent.

Evading isn't the solution

I never seem to tell my personal troubles to anyone. Why should I? Everyone has their own problems and I do not wish to add more of them on their list.

Looking back, I seem to tell people my problems only to with theirs. Thus making it easier for them to understand what I went through and what I did to overcome it. I'm just never good at telling people my personal problems seriously.

What's my song? I still can't figure it out.

I guess this is where e law of e game hits me. I'm not sure if I broke any laws but I could see consequences of not following it. e situation I'm at now is not complicated by logic, but by emotions. I believe when emotions come in, it makes a living hell in your mind if you don't realize the problem. I'm not even sure if what I'm doing is right? No one should get hurt. Maybe being e simple me might be e best choice. Just "hi" and "bye". Why complicate it and you end up hurting yourself and people around you. Just follow e rules and all will be fine.

I really hope no one gets hurt, inside.

Troubling thoughts

Here I am at palawan office typing this entry. I feel like I'm stuck in between. I can't seem to decide. It seems that I can start and hold on to it. But I can't seem to find the finisher. I feel so afraid. My confidence doesn't seems to be at where I start when it comes to finishing. It seems so fun just to toy with it. To show and tell but never to embrace. I hope I'm not hurting anyone.