It's interesting to know that when people say that life flashes by in an instant right before you die is actually true. But Barney puts it more specific, things that are important to you will flash by and I agree to that. When I had my first major asthma attack back in 2004 or 05, alot of things were running in my head. I saw my family. There was so many things that I wanted to do. So many things I haven't accomplished. I was only 16.
Late Saturday, I sensed my asthma was coming back and thankfully this time I had my inhaler with me. It's too risky not to bring it around. I realised that after a few puffs from the inhaler, I wasn't really recovering. It had lessen the severity but it never gave out. On Saturday, I went to Alexander Hospital to get myself checked. I should have seen this coming. I was asked why I came and I told them I had asthma. A few minutes later, they brought me to the back and gave me some medication by a face mask and some oral medication. I hate it when I don't expect it. I think I was at the hospital for about an hour and a half. I think. At least I got 2 days MC which isn't so bad really. Got another inhaler and some medications.
Sure enough being sick sucks. A friend told me that she was sick of being sick so she just did stuff and ate like she was fine. I tried it out and true enough, it wasn't so bad really. I just have to watch out for my cough and phlegm. Monday was awesome! I'd love to add it but my eyes can't handle it now. Turning in now. Goodnight!
Monday, March 14, 2011
Saturday, March 12, 2011
Move On
After watching the movie Miracles, alot of things came to mind. Almost every area in my life came to me and ask me what's next? I knew what this movie was all about. I've Wikied it, Googled it and even YouTubed it. What's there to know more about the movie. It's about watching the whole movie and get connected with it. It's the process that engages us.
I've actually taken 3 more puffs from my inhaler before I started typing this out. Asthma or shortness of breath? I feel both. It's a terrible feeling. It's probably caused by a significant amount of fizzy drinks I had for the past 2 weeks. Lack of rest or sleep and exercise. Why am I consuming such unhealthy consumables and not giving myself enough of what the body really needs? I think I've found the answer.
I've been giving myself to others more. I wouldn't say it's a bad thing but I just did not know how to strike a balance. I'm in a bad shape right now. Worse I've ever been not accounting to my health at this moment. I'm learning more about myself, more of how I react to new replies. Things changed. So must I. I believe most of us who's away from Singapore for some time will make new friends to whichever country they go to for whatever the reason. These people changed to adapt so that they can survive in a foreign land. For those left behind, we have to move forward and progress.
I missed talking to my BFF. We used to go and have lunch together during her lunch time when I'm on off duty. I really enjoyed the times we spent together as she has taught me so much about alot of stuff. She's really an amazing woman. Her other half is so fortunate to have her. He's a great guy too and I learned loads of stuff from him too! I really owe alot to them. I think it's time for me to catch up with them very soon and I'm looking forward to meeting them very soon!
Ending my day again with hot Milo and dreaming my dream.
I've actually taken 3 more puffs from my inhaler before I started typing this out. Asthma or shortness of breath? I feel both. It's a terrible feeling. It's probably caused by a significant amount of fizzy drinks I had for the past 2 weeks. Lack of rest or sleep and exercise. Why am I consuming such unhealthy consumables and not giving myself enough of what the body really needs? I think I've found the answer.
I've been giving myself to others more. I wouldn't say it's a bad thing but I just did not know how to strike a balance. I'm in a bad shape right now. Worse I've ever been not accounting to my health at this moment. I'm learning more about myself, more of how I react to new replies. Things changed. So must I. I believe most of us who's away from Singapore for some time will make new friends to whichever country they go to for whatever the reason. These people changed to adapt so that they can survive in a foreign land. For those left behind, we have to move forward and progress.
I missed talking to my BFF. We used to go and have lunch together during her lunch time when I'm on off duty. I really enjoyed the times we spent together as she has taught me so much about alot of stuff. She's really an amazing woman. Her other half is so fortunate to have her. He's a great guy too and I learned loads of stuff from him too! I really owe alot to them. I think it's time for me to catch up with them very soon and I'm looking forward to meeting them very soon!
Ending my day again with hot Milo and dreaming my dream.
Friday, March 4, 2011
masking
Have you ever thought what the other person feels when he/she sends you a happy message? Was the message sent with an expression of happiness or was it just something he/she had to send just to make the chat looks happy to the other party?
Sometimes I wonder myself. Was all this for real or was I faking it?
Sometimes I wonder myself. Was all this for real or was I faking it?
where? over here?
What makes people popular? Is it just by looks alone or is there more than meets the eye?
Sometimes I wonder what these popular people do in their spare time? They probably have people contacting them 24/7 with whatever technology there is in the world. Technology has made communication so much easier and simpler.
This is a very random post and who cares right?
Sometimes I wonder what these popular people do in their spare time? They probably have people contacting them 24/7 with whatever technology there is in the world. Technology has made communication so much easier and simpler.
This is a very random post and who cares right?
Friday, February 25, 2011
It Knows Know Boundaries
When I hung up the phone last night, I realized that what I just did was an idea someone had. The idea of talking to someone by using a tool to help us communicate with one another seamlessly. Most of us take for granted the easy accessibility of the internet and the electricity. I could understand how it feels not to be connected to the internet and not have electricity at the same time.
I use to often stay at my late dad's village in Batu Pahat, Johor when I was in primary school. Every long holidays he would pick the whole family up from Singapore back to Johor and back when school is about to reopens. During that time, we do get a blackout due to some technical fault and the whole village would be in darkness and everyone would be using candles.
Okay, maybe I wasn't so affected by the blackout but I use to watch the TV often then and at times I missed out some shows and cartoons. Living in blackout is not easy but we worked it out especially when night comes. We can't see much and we tend to stay close to one another for safety. I was definitely afraid of the dark then, but not too much now, only if I don't think too much about what's there in the dark. Anything that uses electricity was kind of useless. But when the blackout was over, life had a new life. I was back watching TV, lying down with the fan blowing cool wind at me. Lights filled up the house and everything was back to normal. Life was simple at the village for me then. Then came the internet.
There wasn't internet back at Johor then and even now. But back at Singapore, when I first got internet, it was so addictive. There was a cap for the amount of data I could use. I think it was less than 1GB. I can't remember the exact amount but anyway, I always exceed the data and my aunt had to pay more for the excess usage. The computer and the internet was shared between me and my elder brother. I think this was when I was back in primary 3 or 4? Wow. That's like 12 years back.
How simple ideas like the electricity and the internet changed the world. It has crossed oceans and continents to change lives of human beings for better or worse. I Skyped last night and it ended my day so much better than I had expected.
I use to often stay at my late dad's village in Batu Pahat, Johor when I was in primary school. Every long holidays he would pick the whole family up from Singapore back to Johor and back when school is about to reopens. During that time, we do get a blackout due to some technical fault and the whole village would be in darkness and everyone would be using candles.
Okay, maybe I wasn't so affected by the blackout but I use to watch the TV often then and at times I missed out some shows and cartoons. Living in blackout is not easy but we worked it out especially when night comes. We can't see much and we tend to stay close to one another for safety. I was definitely afraid of the dark then, but not too much now, only if I don't think too much about what's there in the dark. Anything that uses electricity was kind of useless. But when the blackout was over, life had a new life. I was back watching TV, lying down with the fan blowing cool wind at me. Lights filled up the house and everything was back to normal. Life was simple at the village for me then. Then came the internet.
There wasn't internet back at Johor then and even now. But back at Singapore, when I first got internet, it was so addictive. There was a cap for the amount of data I could use. I think it was less than 1GB. I can't remember the exact amount but anyway, I always exceed the data and my aunt had to pay more for the excess usage. The computer and the internet was shared between me and my elder brother. I think this was when I was back in primary 3 or 4? Wow. That's like 12 years back.
How simple ideas like the electricity and the internet changed the world. It has crossed oceans and continents to change lives of human beings for better or worse. I Skyped last night and it ended my day so much better than I had expected.
Thursday, February 24, 2011
Losing Minds
I sometimes wonder if I'm okay. I realized that I tend to be more positive in the morning than I am at night. This occurs most of the time when I'm alone most of the time. Sometimes it even happens when I'm with a group of friends.
Much has happened these past few days. My most recent event would be the diving theory I took last Wednesday. It was a 3hour theory lesson. It was like back to class for me. Our instructor, Grace, did a good job in teaching us the theory. She was really friendly and made it easy to understand for those who were there.
Last Tuesday was Charmaine's birthday. I believe she was so happy by the end of the day. It was her first time cutting her own cake according to her. I can't remember how that felt but I bet she was so happy. She said she got dunked in the sea, which was not surprising to me. Anyone can get dunked for whatever reason. Knowing enough of her childhood, I really believe she felt like the happiest girl in the world at the moment. I gave her chocolates and a card.
Last Thursday was awesome! I had dinner with Carolyn and Jessamine at Popeye's and the delicious durian dessert which they introduced to me. I really enjoy their company alot. They are such nice friends. It's located at Ang Mo Kio where the two stores are just across one another and that made it much more convenient. It was definitely a good catch up for me and Jess who has quit Sentosa. Carolyn is still working in Sentosa so I still chat with her when she's in the island. I realized that I've actually known them for about slightly more than a year. How time flies. We bought some stuff from NTUC after the dessert and found a place to sit to continue our very interesting conversations. That night ended well for me. We'll definitely meet up again but not so soon as the both of them have exams and their own stuff to do. Good stuff.
It ends here. For now. I got to shower and have breakfast before I head out to work. More to come!
Much has happened these past few days. My most recent event would be the diving theory I took last Wednesday. It was a 3hour theory lesson. It was like back to class for me. Our instructor, Grace, did a good job in teaching us the theory. She was really friendly and made it easy to understand for those who were there.
Last Tuesday was Charmaine's birthday. I believe she was so happy by the end of the day. It was her first time cutting her own cake according to her. I can't remember how that felt but I bet she was so happy. She said she got dunked in the sea, which was not surprising to me. Anyone can get dunked for whatever reason. Knowing enough of her childhood, I really believe she felt like the happiest girl in the world at the moment. I gave her chocolates and a card.
Last Thursday was awesome! I had dinner with Carolyn and Jessamine at Popeye's and the delicious durian dessert which they introduced to me. I really enjoy their company alot. They are such nice friends. It's located at Ang Mo Kio where the two stores are just across one another and that made it much more convenient. It was definitely a good catch up for me and Jess who has quit Sentosa. Carolyn is still working in Sentosa so I still chat with her when she's in the island. I realized that I've actually known them for about slightly more than a year. How time flies. We bought some stuff from NTUC after the dessert and found a place to sit to continue our very interesting conversations. That night ended well for me. We'll definitely meet up again but not so soon as the both of them have exams and their own stuff to do. Good stuff.
It ends here. For now. I got to shower and have breakfast before I head out to work. More to come!
Friday, February 11, 2011
i ponder
It's been 3 days since she flew off. The first day was the toughest for me. The sudden halt of the frequent SMS really made me lose myself. I couldn't focus at all. All I could do that day was to distract myself by doing something without thinking much. I couldn't get the hang of not receiving and replying her SMS so many times daily since she came back from China. It was one of the worst days in my life.
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