Heartwarming.

Today have been a great day. Just had my Myojo curry chicken cup noodles and Pokka jasmine green tea. Life's simple pleasure. Anyway, TODAY IS PAYDAY! YEAH! :D

Back to business...

There was dance practice for the opening of the boardwalk earlier at 6pm. It was really fun! When I was chosen to do this dance by Shiqin a week ago, I was like oh man. But I figured I'm definitely not the only one feeling that way. Being half optimistic, I just went. By the end of that practice, I find it fun! I had a great workout and it was something totally new to me. I never danced like that before so it was not easy for me. The moves were cool but to execute them is not easy. Sure I had a great time, but by the end of that, my hamstring hurts! Thankfully it's just my hamstring. I bet some had soreness all over the body. Today's practice was the whole thing from the top. It was so fun to do all that. I really enjoyed it and now both my legs hurt a little. I think it's because I didn't stretched enough. 3 more days to the actual day. Excited!

Earlier in the afternoon, I went to meet up with Kat who works at NIKE at West Coast Plaza. I remembered my best friend's little sister, Liyinn, wanted socks from NIKE about 2 months back. We were then just walking around in a KL shopping center, and she said she was looking for socks as stuff in Malaysia is definitely cheaper. But to my knowledge, such shopping centre which we went to doesn't have much variety and I was right. They had NIKE socks but the ones she wanted was not sold there. Back in Singapore. I saw the socks Liyinn wanted at West Coast Plaza. Since Kat works there, I'll get 30% off under Kat's account. Called Liyinn a few days back and she said she wanted 6 pairs and so I got them for her. As for me, I wanted socks too but there wasn't any size for me. There were 2 Air Force 1's that I fancied but there wasn't any size for me too. Simply put, there was nothing for me to buy at that moment.

25/01/2011. I remembered that I did not wake up a happy person that day. At least it wasn't as bad as the night before. The day didn't start well for me either and then came an e-mail from a good friend of mine, Cindy, which had a title "100 ways to motivate yourself". It was hard to absorb such material so I just skimmed through the e-mail on my iPhone while I was in the bus to work and I found this phrase "Anything that worries you should be acted upon. Not just thought about" on one of the 100 ways. I recalled doing stuff when I was not in the good mood. It's my way of blowing up steam. When I was at work, I was assigned to be on tower but I was pulled put to cover ground. It rained and it never stopped. Nicole texted me and told me it rained as she was in hut 7. She called it the Nicole effect. I forgotten that she had told me that before. When Nicole works at hut 7, it'll rain. If it's not a heavy downpour, a small drizzle is still counted. It still poured when Nicole's at hut 7.

What I did at work was admin and toilet checks. Moving around actually helped me to loosen up and made me feel better. The run during my break actually helped me to loosened up even more and thus the day at work had made me happier. Texts coming from Nicole and Has made the day even better. I did told Nicole the night before that I didn't want to go for the dinner on 25/01/2011. That thought was made when I was in the worst situation so I had to decide by what is right. I did went to have dinner with Nicole and Has at TOS in the end after work. That was the plan Has planned a few days back. It was a wonderful dinner. I can't remember the time I had 2 beautiful women eating with me. I don't think I ever had. Hmm.. The plan to have ice-cream after dinner never came about as the 3 of us was definitely enjoying each others company after dinner. We were there for close to 2 hours. I realized it after we were about to leave. We then headed to Vivocity to help Nicole choose a pair of earphones to replace her worn out purple Koss earphones where music only comes out from one the headphones according to her description. So we all went to Challenger and helped Nicole picked a new pair for her. A purple Sony earphones. Nicole's favourite color is purple and not green. Right after she threw her old Koss earphones, all of us head home. The day ended in a total 360 degree change from morning to night. I felt like I was back to normal. Or so I thought. Tired and sleepy sounds more real. I was definitely happier.

I think I've never typed this much before. Maybe I have but I can't recall:/

My body is aching and I'm sleepy. Going off now.

Thanks Nicole for reminding me,"the longest anyone should ever sulk for is 15 minutes cos any longer than that. life's passing by". Sometimes I hate you for being right. Only for that instance.

Good night!

This is the view I saw at Palawan Beach at 6.30pm. It's just magnificent.

Evading isn't the solution

I never seem to tell my personal troubles to anyone. Why should I? Everyone has their own problems and I do not wish to add more of them on their list.

Looking back, I seem to tell people my problems only to with theirs. Thus making it easier for them to understand what I went through and what I did to overcome it. I'm just never good at telling people my personal problems seriously.

What's my song? I still can't figure it out.

I guess this is where e law of e game hits me. I'm not sure if I broke any laws but I could see consequences of not following it. e situation I'm at now is not complicated by logic, but by emotions. I believe when emotions come in, it makes a living hell in your mind if you don't realize the problem. I'm not even sure if what I'm doing is right? No one should get hurt. Maybe being e simple me might be e best choice. Just "hi" and "bye". Why complicate it and you end up hurting yourself and people around you. Just follow e rules and all will be fine.

I really hope no one gets hurt, inside.

Troubling thoughts

Here I am at palawan office typing this entry. I feel like I'm stuck in between. I can't seem to decide. It seems that I can start and hold on to it. But I can't seem to find the finisher. I feel so afraid. My confidence doesn't seems to be at where I start when it comes to finishing. It seems so fun just to toy with it. To show and tell but never to embrace. I hope I'm not hurting anyone.

Twenty Eleven

A new year begins. 2011. New dreams to fulfill. New things to learn. New places to discover. New worlds to conquer.

My new years are always the same for me. Nothing new and nothing big. The serenity of the night and the thought of the new year always fills my heart with hope and a better future.

What is the feeling that I'm feeling right now? I can't seem to understand. Or maybe I do? I don't know. Maybe I should just do stuff without much conscious. Do it with the purpose where everyone wins but never get emotionally connected. Be a robot.

There's a reason I sleep at night.

The End.. of twenty ten.

Last update for 2010. 10mins to 2011. Everyone should be excited. Almost everyone. I'm not one of the everyone.

Monopoly Deal

It's amazing where life brings you as you grow older. So much has happened in just a few short weeks that I dunno where to start. Let's start back words.

Reaching home at 8am is very new to me. Most of the time it's close to 10am for whatever reasons like wok and stuff. But today I reached home 8am because I was out with Claire the whole night.

Claire. A red head Chinese girl who has a tattoo from the rear of her left shoulder, across her back, and all the way to her right leg. That makes her very outstanding. She's cute too. The first time we met at Sentosa, we never spoke. We only spoke when I was sending some of the guys in the Buddy Wagon to Ficus for some company survey and on the way back, saw her walking, possibly going back to the beach. It was in the van where we had our first conversation. After that, we never spoke but met during Has's birthday surprise. That was all until..

Nicole. A very sanguine girl who has alot of energy. Small girl but full of life. She's pretty as well. As told by her, she was an ugly duckling when she was younger and she has expensive skin. She use to and still does see the dermatologist. And she wore braces before too. Now she's away to Tibet for some church stuff. I think. She'll be back on 3rd Jan 2011.