Troubling thoughts

Here I am at palawan office typing this entry. I feel like I'm stuck in between. I can't seem to decide. It seems that I can start and hold on to it. But I can't seem to find the finisher. I feel so afraid. My confidence doesn't seems to be at where I start when it comes to finishing. It seems so fun just to toy with it. To show and tell but never to embrace. I hope I'm not hurting anyone.